Roadwork On The 818.

Journal Entry, 4 March 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:39:55 -0400

See, the today of the matter is that we’re already here

Spiraling down, spiraling out in an uncontrollable craze

I look to you to seek solace, to save face

but your back has already been turned to me.

Smiling faces though no comfort to be found

seek solace in your pity party

for that’s the only truck stop that’s around.

Journal Entry, 27 February 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:35:29 -0400

Sometimes I wish I could speak my mind instead of running in circles and wasting my time.

Journal Entry, 24 February 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:34:17 -0400

You were just the product of a one night stand
Yet what I don’t get is how you’re in high demand.

Journal Entry, 23 February 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:32:59 -0400

For a trail I shall forge on my own —
I shall blaze brightly fighting hard all alone.

Journal Entry, 22 February 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:30:47 -0400

The Lakewood Forest was a wonderful place, Ayah thought to himself as he surveyed his surroundings. It was definitely summertime in the forest with the trees full of bright green leaves, shading the forest inhabitants from the oppressive summer heat.

On the edge of the forest sat a very large lake, shimmering its silvery sacles in a swarth of deep blue. Ayah looked at the water and longed to jump in it, imagining himself splashing down in the cool water and escaping the heat.

He shook his head, clearing his head of his watery daydream distraction and got back to work sweeping the dirt floor of the big tree he lived in with his family.

Journal Entry, 21 February 2012

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 11:25:49 -0400

I belong to a fandom that is pretty close knit — it’s almost as if you’re in a real life episode of “Cheers” where everybody knows your name. Everyone (on the whole) gets along and if someone has a broblem with another person, the situation usually gets resolved quickly albeit with a tiny bit of fuss but nothing too unbearable.

So it always gets under my skin when I’m doing my usual casual Internet browsing to find that someone has posted an ‘all-call’ style message in a public forum about how a certain subset of the fandom that attended an event that was hosted about a month prior to said posting all need to get tested for HIV.

The contents of the message were sparse with no names to ‘protect the innocent’ and just vaguely general references that didn’t have much merit. They story kept getting edited in place whith updates to the situation mostly stupid edits like removing the name of the event when it has originally been included in the original posting; to ultimately have the author recant and say that the situation actually took place at _another_ event (which had its name plastered in the post, as well)

Stuff like this pisses me off. The biggest reason benig that you shouldn’t broadcast anyone’s private business to the public, especially for something as serious as AIDS or HIV. Telling someone else’s business is just plain wrong, and if there is a true problem, go DIRECT TO THE SOURCE — and failing that, there’s always someone you can talk to that can take care of things, such as the local authorities. But passive aggressive message posted to a public forum where no true information is disseminated? That’s just dumb and a wasted of time and a big headache for all parties involved.

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Mon, 21 Nov 2011 10:04:24 -0500

see, sometimes I don’t understand you and I don’t understand this place I don’t...

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 11:07:08 -0500

see, sometimes I don’t understand you

and I don’t understand this place

I don’t know if you can read it

but the volumes of confusion are

plastered all over my face

this is me, i'm a freak. part one of a thousand.

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 17:17:14 -0400

Reading forums today and not being able to reply due to failings of the ‘you ass’ filter is quite the pisser when you’re trying to look like a responsible leader of the community.

However, a couple of points in short order:

Don’t ‘ghost’ any kind of event, ever. I don’t care if you’re broke, busted and disgusted; if you really wanted to attend the damn thing you would’ve been saving your pennies already. And to further this point, don’t get pissed when you get thrown out because you don’t have the required identification method that the event uses to make sure you’re where you’re supposed to be (badge, sticker, ghetto permanent marker drawing, whatever)

Also, I don’t find people that feel the need to press themselves (sometimes literally) on others all that attractive, and kind of wish they’d just up and explode. Preferably in the middle of an open field. It’s not and never has been funny. Sorry!

this song is about you in short order.

Wed, 31 Aug 2011 15:01:01 -0400

You came in and sideswiped me today
unawares and yet I knew it was coming
I knew to prepare for the day you’d come in and
take potshots at my knees and bring me down
because you said everything was okay
but it wasn’t, not on the inside

i knew this, i knew this

i wanted you to say things were not fine, but it’d be all right
that you weren’t angry, just miffed or bemused.
no, no. once is enough. you told me.

all these things you brought against me
all these charges you’ve filed
straight from left field in the palm of your hand
to my cheek

i knew this, i knew this

i’ve got to find the words to inform you
not upset you or beguile you
that you can’t come in and exclaim i’m the most
precious china doll you’ve ever seen
and simultaneously turn around and say
i’m the most out of touch with reality.

i am the honest one here, I’ve told you everything
there isn’t anything that wasn’t put on the table
for you, no secret walled gardens.
i am the manual, plain english.
yet you came in from left field in the palm of your hand
straight to my cheek.

i knew this, i knew this.

Dogs sit in the back seat.

Thu, 18 Aug 2011 06:45:02 -0400

Okay, humorous story time, more for you and less for me.

So here’s the deal. Despite claiming to be a very easily annoyed guy, I am pretty patient when it comes to most things. I mean, your parents always told you to pick your battles, and so did mine. But I have the added disability of never knowing when the battles should start because you never know how bad it could escalate.

But I have to tell you that playing ‘disc jockey’ on a car stereo while I’m trying to drive is pretty annoying. Add to that mix a healthy dollop of ROAD CONSTRUCTION.

As you may know from reading previous journal entries, you have discerned that I have previously taken a beach trip. Well, to be a nice guy, I rented a car to take on this trip and asked a couple of friends to ride with me and all they had to do was pay for gas. Nothing too complicated.

One of my friends happens to be an amateur DJ, and I only use the word amateur here because he’s just not on the front lines with his name in lights. He’s rather good at making the sounds come out of the speakers in his own little way. But during this trip I don’t think he realized that there is a difference between his fancy pants mixer and a car stereo. He kept adjusting the treble and the bass for EACH. AND. EVERY. SONG. during the trip as if he were sitting on his computer in his audio program trying to craft the perfect track. But the meddling doesn’t stop there.

Oh no.

We’d left rather late from everybody getting off of work and having to pick another person up on the way and eating dinner, which put us at the halfway point after dark. What we didn’t know is that there would be a fair bit of road construction there.

So I’m not good with LOUD NOISES!!! when I need to concentrate. That means I turn the stereo down to a decent decibel level so that I can pay attention to what I’m doing. But what does ‘disc jockey’ friend do? He turns it up to ELEVEN!!!, that’s what. And were we cruising down the highway this wouldn’t be a problem. But I’m trying to drive and am being assaulted by LOUD NOISES!!! and not lose my cool.

Suffice it to say that this wasn’t the only time he did this, it happened multiple times while driving. And there wasn’t much construction at that point. We made it through the travel all right, but next time I’m going to PULL THE CAR OVER AND TURN IT RIGHT BACK AROUND.

Moral of the story is: Keep the dogs in the backseat. You’ll have a better trip.